The station wagon barely makes it as far as Nevada. It dies on
the shoulder during a freak summer thunder storm, trapping the
two young men, and giving them no choice but to face the secrets
they've been hiding, the fears they've been harboring, and the
desire they can barely keep at bay.
Excerpt
"I think we're friends now."
"Well, yeah. But I meant
I could have at least shown
more appreciation since you were apparently my guardian angel."
"It wasn't a bad job. Especially after we started high
school and you didn't really have a big target sign on your
back anymore."
Ed reacted without thought, reaching out to take Sammy's shoulder.
He squeezed it lightly, wishing that there could be more contact.
Wishing there didn't have to be such a distance between them.
They had been closer than Ed had ever imagined, and yet, he
knew he couldn't do what he really wanted to do.
"Sammy
"
"I didn't creep you out, did I?"
"No. I mean, that's what everybody wants, right? Somebody
who will always have their back."
He wasn't going to move his hand until Sammy made him, but
his fingers were starting to tingle from the contact. Sammy's
shirt was still damp, but his skin was so warm through the material
that it almost felt like he wasn't wearing anything at all.
Ed imagined himself leaning forward and inhaling, catching the
scent of rain on his skin. His mouth watered to taste the clean,
salty tang of his neck.
Lightning slashed across the sky, cutting it in two. Ed hadn't
realized how dark it was getting until the flash illuminated
Sammy's face, and he saw something in Sammy's eyes that he hadn't
noticed before. The boom of thunder shook the car, and sent
a new shiver down his spine. He hated thunder. He hated loud
noises in general, but this was worse. Being stuck in the middle
of the desert in what amounted to an over-sized tin can during
the worst rainstorm of his life made the thunder so much worse.
"You shouldn't worry about the thunder. There's not a
safer place you can be in a lightning storm."
"I know. I still wish I was in a house. Hell, I'd settle
for some little hotel room at this point."
"With a bed?"
Ed swallowed. "Well, most hotel rooms do have beds, right?"
"Something you can stretch out on and watch the rain roll
down the window."
"I suppose you could watch the rain here, too."
"We could lay down in the back."
"You could. I don't think we'd both fit in the back seat."
Ed said it lightly, like it was too ridiculous to ever take
seriously.
"No, I meant all the way in the back. We could probably
fit back there."
Ed finally released Sammy's shoulder-it was ridiculous to keep
such a tight hold on him-and looked over his shoulder. Sammy
was right. They could fit back there. It wouldn't exactly be
comfortable because they were both a little too tall, but the
back of the station wagon was empty. They could crawl back there
and
And what? Just lay there and pretend that they weren't touching
each other in a tiny, cramped space? Watch the water sluicing
down the back window and silently follow the patterns? It seemed
like a silly way to pass the time. Worse than that, it seemed
like a maddening way to pass the time. There would be no avoiding
or ignoring Sammy's natural, musky scent. Or just how good his
chest looked covered in a damp, thin T-shirt.
"Come on."
Ed didn't even have a chance to protest before Sammy was climbing
over his seat like a monkey. He nearly kicked Ed in the head
in his excitement.
"Are really serious?"
"Yes. Do you have anything better to do? Besides, we could
be stuck here for awhile. We might as well get comfortable."
"I'm comfortable here."
Ed glanced in his rearview mirror in time to see the tight
curve of Sammy's ass. It was so nice, it didn't need the wet
denim clinging to it, but that certainly helped.
"We might as well get more comfortable."
Ed decided to stop arguing. Partially because he didn't actually
have another argument against moving. Partially because there
was no point pretending that he didn't want to. Especially since
they were probably going to get cold as the storm raged on and
the night approached. The fear of being trapped on the side
of the road, in the rain, for an entire night momentarily overwhelmed
the thrill of being so close to Sammy. If he had been fantasizing
about being trapped with Sammy, he'd probably hit on something
close to this scenario. But the fantasy and the reality were
too far apart, and as he climbed over the back seat, he found
himself wishing all the harder for a hotel room.
"There," Sammy announced with satisfaction. "That's
better, right?"
Perhaps. For some definition of better. They were both on their
sides, facing each other, their knees bent in order to accommodate
the narrow space. Over Sammy's shoulder, Ed saw another flash
of lightning. From his new angle, he could see the true expanse
of the dark, angry clouds stretching across Nevada. Maybe as
far as California.